I'm really beginning to hate the idea of Xmas holidays, and primarily even hate it to the degree of being the most bane of other holidays. Never since this year have I been so....annoyed with the Xmas holidays. I now probably know what Mike feels like whenever he gets home.

I could never understand why a holiday that promotes relaxing with family and such has become such a fucking bother, essentially trying to mimic summer but in a two week period, that feels like one long stress filled week. I try to get around to my friends but obviously their busy and when they ask me out, I am busy as well. Work, obligations, bringing down FUCKING food. etc. The very fact that I can't spend too much time since the day my friends actually do get together, it's on a day I have to help out in the night. Not to mention the damned obligation of having to meet people who you KNOW don't gives a rat's ass whether or not you meet them or not, (and I seriously know that) but eventually just go there for another stressed filled hour of bullshit, worrying about taking up their time and you own schedule.

I'm not lazy, I just want to rest.